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PostSubject: Stay Happy   Mon Oct 05, 2015 2:26 am

Just taking my own advice. I've been really down recently and have started letting things get to me to the extent that I feel like giving up. Not that you can really give up. We've all got to get through this. But lately the unending death and carnage in the Middle East, the dead children, the tide of refugees trudging through Europe, the endless school shootings, the fear the uncertainty for the future.


It has all been seeping into me like a poison and darkening my soul to the extent that the light of positivity and human love inside me, has been going out in my mind, leaving just sad negative thoughts, self criticism, criticism of others, fears, all bounce around my mind like unwelcome parasites. It has been making me feel utterly helpless.

Then a couple of hours ago I just got up and said to myself 'I've got to do something about this' I got down and I prayed and I meditated. I prayed first to be able clear my mind of the darkness and negativity that had settled in it and which I had fed with negative thoughts, and as my mind settled I realised I needed to meditate and find the clear space within myself.


So I sat down and tried to find in myself some instruction and some explanation for all the pain inside me, I totally calmed my mind and stopped all thought, but occasionally a negative thought or fear would flash up in my mind and I actually felt it as a surge of electricity. So I redoubled my focus on totally quietening all my thoughts and got the sense that I was no longer a consciousness operating from a physical brain, but that my consciousness had become a field which was focussed on wherever my will took it.


I found that if I focussed my will just above my head, I could reconnect with a dim light which just shone through. This I know of as God. God is the Light and all consciousness is part of an electro-magnetic field with the upper frequency reaches being the invisible energy source which powers the universe.


I asked a question in the light, it wasn't a question from my brain, it was from my true self, the consciousness field which can be accessed through Zen meditation; when all of the electrical activity has ceased and you achieve clarity. The question was about myself and what I consider my weaknesses and perceived failures. I then saw some key moments from my life and I realised why they had happened, they happened because events which had started before I was even born were in play that created a particular problem or weakness in myself. I saw my childhood and my parents and saw that my negative and confused behaviour in some instances was a direct result of some negative and inescapable parental influence and moulding. I saw that my life wasn't a series of mistakes, just a series of choices which I was always bound to make, since we are more or less, tied and constrained to a certain mental pattern and inherited behaviours.


I asked 'What can I do?'. And the answer was 'Just survive'.


Now, although 'Just survive' doesn't sound like much of an encouragement, it did encourage me and it made me realise that we are all constantly trying to do just that, but we forget it. We forget that at a primal level, we don't need possessions and job security, we are living beings in a semi-hostile environment and we just have to survive while behind these enemy lines. And that is what we must realise, forget about the fears, the horror and the misery, SURVIVE IT! Stay Happy.


This is a subtle war on the human spirit and while real wars are being fought in the Middle East psychological wars are being fought on all of us here at home.


They come from a million different directions too. It isn't just the media and politicians trying to darken our lights and make us weak and helpless and unable to defend ourselves against the many threats from society which is constantly trying to trip us up or exploit us. We no longer live in a peaceful civilised world, we live in an artificial jungle of created threats and predators introduced into our cages.


Life has changed so fast and in such a surprising way. When I was young the world felt relatively sane and perhaps it was. Nowadays everything has reached such a frenzy of discord and negativity. From Feminism being rammed down everyone's throats like never before, to the music, entertainment and celebrities which have all reached some kind of ritualised peak of obscenity.


It is clear we are all under attack, and it's no use banging your head against all the pain fear and horror in the world, you will never win, it will devour your soul in the end. So we have to transcend it. We have to stay happy.


No matter what happens, the worse the avalanche of shit gets, the more confusion and lies which reign, the more you will have to make a conscious willful effort to be happy and hang onto it. You have to realise, its purpose is to BRING YOU DOWN. To crush your spirit! This is probably the real reason why there is all this horror in the world, the human agents call it politics and feel they have to play these war-games, but the demonic beings know the true purpose.


They have to degrade and exploit the people of planet Earth to the point that they can make people fall into despair. Once in despair you become like them, full of misery confusion, sadness and loneliness and your vision of inner happiness and the light of peace and understanding will go out leaving you a prey to the predators.

Zen meditation. Clear your mind, even in the darkest of times you can still find the inner light.

Inside your mind you can make a clearing for your true self, reconnect to the light, find it with your mind and you will be armed for whatever this dirty old world can throw at you.

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PostSubject: Re: Stay Happy   Mon Oct 05, 2015 2:30 am

The media is just a distilation of other people's dysfunction. Why are so many media stars and musicians so messed up? Why are empathy negative politicans who go to loveless boarding schools and come out robotic sociopaths running the UK? and what's with all the paedophilia?

What is this freaks circus which is invading our lives? Why don't they all just leave us alone, all these weirdos trying to fuck with us all the time.

I guess lately I have been feeling more and more sucked in to their madness and seeing it as my 'reality' and getting a bit depressed as a result. 

But that's because I've been forgetting to meditate and lost the light and strayed from the path.

Do you know that feeling? The things are all going well in yourself and you feel you're exactly where you need to be doing exactly what you need to be doing, so you're at peace. Then something comes along which disturbs that peace and leaves you wondering why things have changed inside yourself. And why now do you feel restless and disconsolate? 

This is more than a feeling but a tangible force. This light or inner peace is something we need to relocate if we have lost it and sometimes you only recognise something for what it is, by its absence.

Anyone feel that?

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PostSubject: Re: Stay Happy   Mon Oct 05, 2015 4:18 am

Jay you may appreciate this, and it may help:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvEjm2xFZ_k

let me know what you think.
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PostSubject: Re: Stay Happy   Mon Oct 05, 2015 9:05 am

abraxas55 wrote:
Jay you may appreciate this, and it may help:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvEjm2xFZ_k

let me know what you think.

Yeah, I really like that stuff. I heard the name AdamPants on the DI forum but didn't really know any more.....  "Communicating with the creator".... It's good to hear someone else speaking in those terms. One starts to feel you're the only one who really understands and when you find that someone else 'gets it' you no longer feel so isolated.

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PostSubject: Re: Stay Happy   Mon Oct 05, 2015 9:26 pm

Seems like you were feeling similar to me when I posted in the same vain a few weeks back.

You’re a teacher, dude, I think that’s one of your main purposes here. You’re good at helping people visualise answers, I mean anyone who helps me actually understand quantum physics properly is clearly gifted to some degree.

It’s amazing how on such a thin line our happiness exists. I know I can have a communion with a higher power but my techniques of interaction are more everyday as I don’t meditate. But I can still address it through prayer or even just talking aloud. It responds in certain ways, which would probably be described as "coincidence" by a lot of people.

I try to focus on my purpose of giving, to bring joy through great music. To save the people from the system for some divine moments or hours or days. 


But it’s my purpose of improvement, selfishness, which still stalks and trips me and sometimes causes me to write similar posts to yours here. Or more accurately, when to be selfish. 

I’ll be selfish when I shouldn’t be, then because of feeling guilty afterwards, next time I’ll be selfless but it won’t work and I’ll reflect that I should have been more selfish on that occasion. 

Such are the ongoing paradoxes of the universe.

It’s a grind if you’re not earning a living from what you love. Up early, 9-5, then gym so not home until 7.30, straight into the studio until midnight…and still no penny from any release in nearly 4 years. It’s a test…but a lot of promise now, some big name contacts, and dnb pays well enough to quit 9-5 if you make it. 

You can go to bedroom zero to dnb pro at light speed with the right kind of eyes. That and gym are what keep me going, and dating 19 year old blondes.
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PostSubject: Re: Stay Happy   Tue Oct 06, 2015 1:35 am

futureshock wrote:
Seems like you were feeling similar to me when I posted in the same vain a few weeks back.

You’re a teacher, dude, I think that’s one of your main purposes here. You’re good at helping people visualise answers, I mean anyone who helps me actually understand quantum physics properly is clearly gifted to some degree.

It’s amazing how on such a thin line our happiness exists. I know I can have a communion with a higher power but my techniques of interaction are more everyday as I don’t meditate. But I can still address it through prayer or even just talking aloud. It responds in certain ways, which would probably be described as "coincidence" by a lot of people.

I try to focus on my purpose of giving, to bring joy through great music. To save the people from the system for some divine moments or hours or days. 


But it’s my purpose of improvement, selfishness, which still stalks and trips me and sometimes causes me to write similar posts to yours here. Or more accurately, when to be selfish. 

I’ll be selfish when I shouldn’t be, then because of feeling guilty afterwards, next time I’ll be selfless but it won’t work and I’ll reflect that I should have been more selfish on that occasion. 

Such are the ongoing paradoxes of the universe.

It’s a grind if you’re not earning a living from what you love. Up early, 9-5, then gym so not home until 7.30, straight into the studio until midnight…and still no penny from any release in nearly 4 years. It’s a test…but a lot of promise now, some big name contacts, and dnb pays well enough to quit 9-5 if you make it. 

You can go to bedroom zero to dnb pro at light speed with the right kind of eyes. That and gym are what keep me going, and dating 19 year old blondes.

Thanks for the encouragment.
You cheeky lad. Look at you. 

I think Morocco's getting me down a bit to tell the truth. I've had Masons trying to recruit me here and they just do so many stupid games (and an actual attempted psychic invasion from a creepy man wearing a Mason's ring). He was in my class and he also seemed to be coordinating three 15 year old girls to flirt with me and to continually be adjusting their clothes in an attempt to show me their cleavage. I mean what the fuck is all that about? A right creepy crew, there was a few of them where I work, some kind of weird underage girl entrapment/baiting thing going on. All getting into gear after a course at The British Council where they tried to get me to join them. I have heard that anybody who won't join them because he aleady has the light or knows God, they try to compromise them with something, hence the 15 year old girls. 

I'm no fool and 15 year old girls do nothing for me. Not everyone's mind operates on those same creepy Masonic principles. So I've been feeling mired in a rather sordid situation.

Anyway, that's what I've been dealing with, and more besides. Went to London and that was quite an adventure.  if you want to read a story I wrote about it on my blog, but the things in that story all actually happened. Including getting invited to visit Kew Gardens by an energetic old Miss Marple type English woman along with her identi-spook son who met us at King's Cross and for some reason spoke in a Russian accent, he had several scars and apparently had taken down 3 men in South America and escaped from a terrorist training camp just outside Hammamet in Tunisia...... All alone in Kew Gardens with a Russian spook or a British spook pretending to be a Russian? No thanks. 

http://www.truthspoon.com/p/on-edge-of-abyss.html

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PostSubject: Re: Stay Happy   Tue Oct 06, 2015 3:36 pm

Yeh she’s 19 going on 40. A far greater expanse of consciousness than your average 19 year old.
 
I can’t find that Blake fella on Amazon. Seems like we’ll have to choose our place to link up carefully. I’m glad you like Ally Pally though, as I live a ten minute walk from it.
 
Strange tales from a strange time, as Hunter S Thompson used to say. We should head down Stokey and have the strongest pint in London – Delerium Tremens, only £7 a pint. I think it’s like 9%. Bargain round those parts
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PostSubject: Re: Stay Happy   Tue Oct 06, 2015 7:03 pm

futureshock wrote:
Yeh she’s 19 going on 40. A far greater expanse of consciousness than your average 19 year old.
 
I can’t find that Blake fella on Amazon. Seems like we’ll have to choose our place to link up carefully. I’m glad you like Ally Pally though, as I live a ten minute walk from it.
 
Strange tales from a strange time, as Hunter S Thompson used to say. We should head down Stokey and have the strongest pint in London – Delerium Tremens, only £7 a pint. I think it’s like 9%. Bargain round those parts


I changed his name......

I hate spooks but I don't feel the need to blow anyone's cover.

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